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[16 Aug 2005|02:44pm] |
joel: i think we should go.
clementine: no, it's our house. just tonight... [she looks at an envelope on the counter] ...we're david and ruth laskin. which one do you want to be? i'd like to be ruth, but i can be flexible.
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rip laffonda, you were a tough crab. <3
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[17 Sep 2004|04:35pm] |
i'm trying this again. although my journal is now friends only, i'm making this public because i'm that interested to see how it goes..
Post anything that you want here, if you want leave it anonymously. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love... anything. Make sure to post honestly. Post as many times as you'd like. Then, put this in your DJ to see what others have to say.
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[12 Sep 2004|01:54am] |
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[14 Jan 2004|03:30pm] |
1. give me a nickname + explain why you picked it.
2. am i loveable?
3. how long have you known me?
4. when + how did we first meet?
5. what was your first impression?
6. do you still think that way about me now?
7. what do you think my weakness is?
8. do you think i'll stay married?
9. what makes me happy?
10. what makes me sad?
11. what reminds you of me?
12. if you could give me anything what would it be?
13. how well do you know me?
14. when's the last time you saw me?
15. ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. do you think i could kill someone?
17. describe me in one word.
18. do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. do you feel that you could talk to me about anything + i would listen?
20. are you going to put this on your LiveJournal + see what i say about you?
i don't know if anyone reads my journal anymore and these are kind of dumb questions, so it's okay if no one does it.
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| the drama's what she loves. don't be dumb, can't you see? |
[24 Nov 2003|05:57pm] |
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er. i'm hungry and for some reason in a really bad mood but i can't figure out why. maybe just cause i'm hungry. i don't know. we went to see cat in the hat. it was cute but i dislike thing 1 and thing 2. they're freaky. i threw a hissy fit in the mall, threw my bag, and cracked my liquid cover up. it was gross and embarassing. mmm. i want to put away all my clothes but maybe i'll take a nap first. i dono, i'm starting to think that just writing the details of my day as a public entry are flaunty and pointless. i dono, what do you think?
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| but looking back i realize that i never really meant that much. |
[23 Nov 2003|10:53pm] |
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my weekend was pretty good. i've been in a weird mood since thursday. let's get some short weekend summaries going on. friday, some kid drove us to my house. saw anthony in his truck. hsfh show. karen, katie hickey, and jessdos time. got there late, found vanessa and marc. me and j2 walked with them through the back, didn't have to pay, which rocked. turns out i wasn't going to have to pay anyway but it was cool either way. saw everyone but was in a weird mood. i talked to william a. muldoon most of the time. he makes me happy. stupid people. got alot of comlpliments<3 that i didn't know what to do with. hsfh played. dance party like whoa. taco bell, picked up crabby crabertons, and dave. 711 kissy woah. j2 slept over. i fell asleep cranky. saturday, woke up in a horrid mood. pretty much ruined every conversation between anyone that tried to talk to me. jess dos came to work with me, she tried to cheer me up. i wanted death. i love her alot though because it worked. came home in another wierd mood. talked to a bunch of people. spoke to russell d. on el telephono. i miss him so much. mike chiddo came over. he knocked on the wrong door by accident. he finally found my house. looked up crazy dead baby jokes. elvis took an hour to walk to my house. me, jess, and mike dance parties. mike is amazing at dance parties. my mom drove us and picked up elvis to jess dos' house. had crazy fights. mikey c. and elvisy [haha] p. are amazing to spend time with, but it's not like i didn't know that. when the boys came back from the show they came to jess'. elvis tried on her clothes and he has lots of junk in his trunk. <3. they left and then we left and drove everyone home. loud car noises are scarey. 711. home. sunday, went shopping with my mom<3. i bought alot of fun stuff. my brother put the shelves together in my closet. i started putting some of the stuff away. joan bought me burger king and i showed her my clothes. went to the mall. i saw animal<3 again. haha. mini van style. we got a close parking spot and we were only there for like 10mins. i came home and my mom left. crazy lady. sat on the computer for a while. redid my journal. i need a new icon. my mom, victoria, and i, did a mission to give me a cable wire in my room. it was like leap frog. sean reaction and jess dos came and picked me up. we stopped at megan's but jess went to the door cause i got nervous. we went to friendly's and i just got home. i need to shower cause i smell. i love you micheal jackson<3. this entry is pretty much a bunch of random sentence fragments stuck together but that's alrite. wooo. i smell.
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| she kept secrets of pride locked so tight in her heart. |
[22 Nov 2003|10:57am] |
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la la la. some people should learn how to be nice. la la la.
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| hold my life until i'm ready to use it, hold my life because i just might lose it. |
[21 Nov 2003|08:20am] |
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hmm. i'm in cosmetology again. it's friday so i'm pretty sure i'm hogging up the computer, what else is new. my nose is so stuffy and my voice is raspy. michelle keeps making fun of me for it. mmm i love raspy voices though. got my nails done. i'm cool, i know. my left hand is better than my right. i want to dye my hair or do something drastic but i have no money nor any ideas. i have my headphones on and people are calling me. i don't know what i'm doing later. erm. i don't want to do what everyone else has planned already, which means i'll probably be by myself. i don't know. we'll see.
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| i guess i changed a lot through the eyes of a jealous mind. |
[20 Nov 2003|10:05pm] |
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my day was okay. i went to school. really didn't want to be in boces but we had the college fair thing, we didn't do much and for the part that we had to do work in, i just wrote jess dos a note. the fair didn't effect me much since i have no future. i sat at the table with jerry and amanda. jerry told me mr. verdi hasn't been in which totally means he's on army businessa. ahh. go verdi. eventually steve and dan wondered over and a whole bunch of other people. i haven't talked to steve in a while. he braids hair like a real man. i kind of miss him. dan's mom was getting hit on by his teacher. i finally talked to austin. it was the highlight of my day. when we were walking back he was outside the hallway. i went to go talk to him, i wasn't looking, and his teacher walked to the door so i got nervous and stumbled away. i did nothing for the rest of boces. in lunch callan totally tried to get some sense in me but i'm hopeless. i love you dear, you're an amazing friend to me. i missed the alt boys, they make me laugh so much<3. at the end of the day i went with jess dos to student civ and snuck out, paul was suposed to pick me up but he couldn't so i saw one of my conectionsssss. what what. i haven't hung out with him since he started driving. we had a long talk. or actually the length of time it took me to get to work. work went fast. i was really hungry and was craving chinese so when my dad came and picked me up we stopped at the china place. stayed at my dad's then came home. my brother bought my mom a whole living room entertainment center. it's nice. i'm not minding my apartment so much. i just have to get used to it. score for cable and cable modem on sunday. i made steve a journal and now i'm bored. hmmm. yeah.
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| i choose my company by the beating of their hearts. |
[19 Nov 2003|02:58pm] |
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i'm sick of potatoes. i need food in this house before i start to eat my skin.
dentonondoomsday: we need to cut soon, im getting sick of class
femmexglamour: that's cause you only missed 2 days.
femmexglamour: haha.
dentonondoomsday: but youll be with aussssssssssssstin. your 14th day could be used to make sandwiches/lame pick up lines/ and movies.
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| today i can't forget that i've got these open wounds, it's such a drag. |
[19 Nov 2003|02:27pm] |
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hey, wow, i didn't go again because i am just totally that cool. i have to go tomorrow though. it's alrite, i just have to get through 2 days. today i slept alot, like usual. watched a few movies. realizing what an ahole you are. i went through my old live journal and still can't believe what an idiot i used to be. i still am, but i can't believe i didn't see all the things that were comming straight for me. i should of made better decisions, should of made better attempts, shouldn't of been so weak. then i started up with the old deadjournal entries. stupid move. i miss everything. whatever. i can't change what has made me into what i am now. it's funny because after me admiting that i should've done things better, you would think i wouldn't do the same now. i'm trying not to. i really am. i have work at 3. this shirt that i'm wearing is itchy. i don't feel like changing though. i can't find anything in this stupid room. after i get off work i want to go purchase the ani cd i don't have but chances of that working out are slim. yeah enough of this bs.
feel better matt. <3
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| first we admit our mistakes + then we open our eyes. |
[18 Nov 2003|10:02pm] |
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d0lK3eyes: don*t thank me.
d0lK3eyes: you know, you were the first person who ever said, "that*s what friends are for" when i thanked you.
d0lK3eyes: i just want you to know that i think you*re wonderful.
femmexglamour: <3 vanessa i love you.
d0lK3eyes: i love you too.
femmexglamour: no, honestly i don't think you have any idea how much i really do love you. i was thinking about this today. we've known eachother for almost 3years i think.
d0lK3eyes: no way.
d0lK3eyes: 2 years.
d0lK3eyes: a little less.
d0lK3eyes: haha.
d0lK3eyes: 1½ haha.
femmexglamour: one and a half, are you sure?
femmexglamour: hahahahhaha. no way.
femmexglamour: alrite well the numbers don't count.
femmexglamour: the point is i love you.
femmexglamour: haha.
d0lK3eyes: yup. i didn*t know you before 3dw times and that is gonna be two years december. and i didn*t go to the talent show because will forgot to remind me the day before and didn*t tell me until that day. so like juneish at the bethpage show.
d0lK3eyes: so a year and a half.
d0lK3eyes: weird computations.
femmexglamour: well if you add 1 / and 2 together it equals 3 alright.
femmexglamour: hahah.
d0lK3eyes: haha. if you add jess and ness you get lots of under 5 foot loving.
d0lK3eyes: sounds like one of those porn emails you get.
femmexglamour: hahahaha. we can sell.
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| you could just leave the image of me in the backround. |
[18 Nov 2003|05:57pm] |
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i didn't go to school again today. all i want to do is to stay in bed. last night i think i had a panic attack and i couldn't breath. i was like suffocating myself or something, who knows. my mom was talking about taking me to the hospital but i didn't want to go.
today i showered in my new shower and had a few conversations i wish i could of put better. still don't know what's going on. my sister came and made me get out of the house. we went to eat and all i wanted to do was to come home but it didn't happen till now.
we stopped at her old apartment and i was sitting in the car watching the cutest kid. his dad was mowing the lawn so he had a little plastic lawnmower and went over all the places his dad did. he kept falling. i don't know, i just thought it was adorable. it made my day.
i have to bring my sister to the airport in a half hour. i can't get upset over this because i don't want to make her feel bad. i want her to stay more than i ever wanted anything. she's the only one who will listen to whatever i feel is important to say. i'm going to be so alone. everything just gets worse. i don't understand why i feel this way. erm.
i want to wear your dirty socks. :(
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| but the same rule always applies, smile pretty + watch your back. |
[17 Nov 2003|10:17pm] |
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i fucking hate all of you.
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| you had hopes + dreams of a day where everything, everything, everything would come together. |
[17 Nov 2003|04:25pm] |
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sometimes i wish i was better at writing so i could put what i'm feeling into to words, but i'm not. i don't even know where to begin. the past couple of days have been tough. i'm going through alot of mental changes. trying getting rid of all the negative people in my life. although i know when i do this, i'll end up with less friends and more awkward moments. i'd rather have friends that care. why would i want a friend who talks about me just as much as i do them? friends shouldn't talk about eachother. they should put themselves out for their friends. whatever though. if you were really my friend you would of cared even the slightest bit instead of telling me to get over it like a fucking 12 year old. and as for my boyfriend if that's what you still are. i care for you so much more than you can imagine. i want us to be us but you need to work things out for yourself first. we just need to talk. i feel incomplete and alone. i don't know what is going to come of everything. what is meant to be is going to happen. as for you who thinks my journal is just filled with pathetic entries, stop reading it already. this entry is going to end now anyway everything else i have to say is too private for a public entry.
we were strong enough to be sick of it,
+ put them back in their fucking place.
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| holding still to see what you find, it's enough to pass the time. |
[14 Nov 2003|02:59pm] |
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i love jessica drama free grassi. <3 she owns you.
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[14 Nov 2003|09:46am] |
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let's make this the millionth entry of the day.
// name++_ jessica.
// birthday++_ may twenty fourth.
// nationality++_ italian and hungarian.
// screen name++_ femmexglamour.
// hair length++_ medium.
// hair color++_ dark brown, black.
// eye color++_ brown. blah.
favorites!
// color[s]++_ rainbow.
// perfume++_ anything good suckka.
// movie++_ falling sky.
// band/singer++_ ani difranco, the distillers the usual..
// subject++_ us. history i supose.
// fruit++_ STRAWBERRY<333333
// month++_ september.
// season++_ inbetween any seasons.
// holiday++_ valentines day.
// saying++_ anal probes. i don't know.
do questions!
// do you believe in love at first sight?++_ yes but more lust then love.
// do you get along with your parents?++_ my dad yes, my mom not always.
// do you think about suicide?++_ it's lame.
// do you drink?++_ nope.
// do you do drugs?++_ nope.
// do you smoke?++_ nope.
// do you think you have multiple personalities?++_ yeah.
have questions!
// have you ever smoked?++_ yes.
// have you ever done drugs?++_ yes.
// have you ever drunk alcohol++_ yes.
// have you ever gotten drunk?++_ yes.
// have you ever made out with just a friend?++_ yes.
// have you ever used someone?++_ yeah but i know better.
// have you ever been used?++_ yeah.
// have you ever wanted someone you couldn't have?++_ not really. i've had everyone i've wanted. which sounds egotistical but it's not.
best questions!
// best person to talk to++_ it depends.
// best relationship++_ my friends.
// best feeling++_ being held.
// best thing in the world++_ the feeling of haveing a place.
// best stuffed animal you own++_ the one elaina got me for my brithday and strawberry shortcake.
// best thing that happened to you yesterday or today: compliments by a certain person that i don't get to see too often.
last questions!
// last time you cried?++_ alone time.
// last movie you saw in a theater?++_ elf [barrrrf.]
// last movie you rented?++_ sleep hallow.
// last movie you bought?++_ lion king for georgie.
// last song you listened to?++_ the stupid one on the radio. i don't know what it's called.
// last song you downloaded?++_ i don't download songs. my computer's too slow.
// last tv show you watched?++_ i think 3s company last night.
// last song that was stuck in your head?++_ emenim, white america or something.
// last person you were thinking of++_ jess2.
// last person you talked to++_ rachael who is sitting next to me.
// last person you hugged++_ my sister.
// last person you kissed++_ george.
// last person you went to eat out with++_ my dad.
// last person you slow danced with++_ did the happy dance with my sister and scott was making fun of us.
// last person you yelled at++_ madre.
// last person you called++_ george this morning. :x i woke him up.
// last person who called you++_ george last night who woke me up.
// last person who made you smile? ++_ mr. kurt.
// last person who made you laugh?++_ ehhh. this is not a laughing matter.
// last person who said they loved you?++_ don't know.
friends!
// closest++_i guess anyone i talk to is close to me.
// who lives farthest away?++_ my sister who is visiting me.
// who lives closest to you?++_ uhh no one really. soon to be elaina and jess2.
// who is the tallest?++_ pssht. keith.
// who is the loudest?++_ cal.
// who is the smartest?++_ i'm not friends with morons.
// who dresses the best?++_ russ.
// who sings the best?++_ sam.
// who makes you smile most?++_ pretty much everyone<3.
// who gives you a funny feeling when you see them?++_ gunit.
// who do you turn to the most?++_ vanessa.
love and relationships!
// who is your boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? george.
// what do you first notice in the opposite sex?++_ ankles, smile.
// are you currently in love?++_ ehh.
// first crush++_ psshht micheal sarisi or something.
// last crush++_ not anymore.
// first love++_ megan.
// ideal date++_ i've only been on one. so it doesn't matter as long as it's a date.
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i*AM: tired, hungry, and trying to keep myself busy.
i*WANT: to take a nap with george.
i*HAVE: chest pains.
i*WiSH: i wouldn't overreact as much as i do.
i*HATE: you.
i*MiSS: megan.
i*FEAR: being alone.
i*HEAR: the radio.
i*SEARCH: for why i feel the way i always do.
i*WONDER: how things are going to work out.
i*REGRET: handling things the wrong way.
i*LOVE: rainbows and strawberries.
i*ACHE: all the time.
i*CARE: about things i shouldn't.
i*ALWAYS: stress out.
i*AM NOT: a moron.
i*DANCE: when i'm in a good mood.
i*SiNG: even though i can not.
i*CRY: alone time :(.
i*DON*T*ALWAYS: think before i do things.
i*FiGHT: for what i feel strongly about.
i*WRiTE: in my journal about pointless things.
i*WiN: i never really won anything.
i*LOSE: everything i love.
i*CONFUSE: myself.
i*LiSTEN: to things i find interesting.
i*CAN*USUALLY*BE*FOUND: eating.
i*NEED: start packing, since ya know i'm moving tomorrow.
i*AM*HAPPY*ABOUT: the fact that today is friday.
i*SHOULD: learn how to apriciate things more than i do.
new answers.
i*AM: lonely and tired.
i*WANT: something special to hold on to.
i*HAVE: big boobs.
i*WiSH: for something to work in my favor for once.
i*HATE: being 15.
i*MiSS: the summer.
i*FEAR: being alone forever.
i*HEAR: my music trying to drown my brother*s dumb video games.
i*SEARCH: for the reason behind things.
i*WONDER: what i*m going to become.
i*REGRET: making ALL the wrong choices.
i*LOVE: my friends <3
i*ACHE: cause i*m tired.
i*CARE: about the things i shouldn*t.
i*ALWAYS: am jealous of something.
i*AM NOT: stupid.
i*DANCE: when i*m drunk.
i*SiNG: even though i can not.
i*CRY: all the time.
i*DON*T*ALWAYS: think before i do things.
i*FiGHT: for what i feel strongly about.
i*WRiTE: in my journal.
i*WiN: if i*m determined.
i*LOSE: everything i want to keep.
i*CONFUSE: myself.
i*LiSTEN: to things i find interesting.
i*CAN*USUALLY*BE*FOUND: eating.
i*NEED: to lose weight.
i*AM*HAPPY*ABOUT: tomorrow, and seeing my sister.
i*SHOULD: go get ready.
old answers.
i found this quiz on my stupid calander on november 15, 2002 because i'm bored out of my mind and i just had a bitch attack. word up.
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